I had a second interview today - and midway through I was offered the job and I immediately accepted. The job would actually invovle using my degree, and would be working in a field I love. However, I am absolutely sickly scared to do this and I can't quite put my finger on why. I feel as bad as I have when someone close to me has died.
At this point, I'm not quitting my management job at my current company - it's part time and I can work from home, it pays ok, but I HATE it. Basically taking on this job means I'll be working more since the new job's pay is very, very, very low. I worry about not getting the house clean, or not having enough time with the kids or the dog, but my reaction is still so extreme.
I wish I could figure out why I'm so upset. I start next Tuesday, so I hope to be feeling better about things before that!
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Waste of Good Ambien
I horade my ambien and only use them when I desperately need a good nights sleep and doubt I'll get it naturally or with the help of Melatonin. Last night was one of those nights. I'd loaded up on coffee and tea to stay alert for Lost. Let's face it, it's not like it helped, my head still felt like I'd been tossed around the room for the last 20 minutes of the show. Serriously, what is going on?
Anyhow, I took the Ambien and read myself to sleep - deep uninterupted sleep despite any noises from Tom or the dog. My blissfull rest was destroyed at 4 something this morning by the dumb cat meowing to get into the room. She had been staying in the room all night, but now doesn't want to - yet howls in the hallway to be let in when it's convenient for her. I locked her skinny ass in the basement and tried to get back to sleep - but that just didn't work so well. The thing is, I'm a cat person, I much prefer them to dogs, but they're both driving me crazy lately. Judy howls so loudly constantly, and Savannah is too neurotic for her own good.
Ok, enough of the crazy cat lady rant. Time to get the kids up and start the day.
Anyhow, I took the Ambien and read myself to sleep - deep uninterupted sleep despite any noises from Tom or the dog. My blissfull rest was destroyed at 4 something this morning by the dumb cat meowing to get into the room. She had been staying in the room all night, but now doesn't want to - yet howls in the hallway to be let in when it's convenient for her. I locked her skinny ass in the basement and tried to get back to sleep - but that just didn't work so well. The thing is, I'm a cat person, I much prefer them to dogs, but they're both driving me crazy lately. Judy howls so loudly constantly, and Savannah is too neurotic for her own good.
Ok, enough of the crazy cat lady rant. Time to get the kids up and start the day.
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Spring
We've had a hint of spring in Columbus this week - well, more like a hint of summer. 80 degrees for several days in a row, but now we're in the 30's. Typical Ohio. I'm not going to dwell on the nasty coldness, it will change again, and soon, because that's how it is.
I've had a chance to do a lot of fun things in the last week or so. Last Friday I took the kids down to the Scioto Audubon park on Whitier Penninsula - you can tell that the park isn't complete yet, definately a work in progress, but it's going to be beautiful once the trees come in a bit more. There was a pretty daunting looking climbing rock too - not that I tried it. Plus there's an audubon center, didn't get a chance to see that since I had to get to work. The playground was good, a bit different that your usual set up, and Rory and Liam liked it.
Saturday we went to Molly's brother's place in Marengo -I am absolutely predjudiced, but I love the Malloys. So much fun for the kids - games where they won "bunny bucks" to spend on little prizes, a great big egg hunt, a hay ride, etc. For the adults, food, drinks and plenty of friendly people to spend time with.
Sunday was Easter complete with a walk home from Graeters - the 4 miles helped to pay off the ice cream, but only some of it :) It was still worth it though.
Monday went to the zoo with Rory and Liam, we met my cousin Sarah and her little boy Brady. Saw some exhibits we'd missed before - always a nice day.
Just been enjoying the weather and working since. I've got an interview tomorrow for a part time job at the Columbus Historical Society - not sure if I'll get it or not, but I'm excited just to interview.
As far as reading goes, I finished Fall of Thanes and wonder why I wasted my time. blah. Mistborn, The Dragonbone Chair and Running with the Demmon are all still good, still trying to get into Gardens of the Moon - can't get hooked yet I'm afraid. Many people have said that it's a good series if you're a fan of George RR Martin's style of writting. No comparison yet, but I've only ready about 25% of the book so far...
yeah, that's all that's been going on, the kids are watching some tv before bed, but I suppose I should make an appearance and get them tucked in... night!
I've had a chance to do a lot of fun things in the last week or so. Last Friday I took the kids down to the Scioto Audubon park on Whitier Penninsula - you can tell that the park isn't complete yet, definately a work in progress, but it's going to be beautiful once the trees come in a bit more. There was a pretty daunting looking climbing rock too - not that I tried it. Plus there's an audubon center, didn't get a chance to see that since I had to get to work. The playground was good, a bit different that your usual set up, and Rory and Liam liked it.
Saturday we went to Molly's brother's place in Marengo -I am absolutely predjudiced, but I love the Malloys. So much fun for the kids - games where they won "bunny bucks" to spend on little prizes, a great big egg hunt, a hay ride, etc. For the adults, food, drinks and plenty of friendly people to spend time with.
Sunday was Easter complete with a walk home from Graeters - the 4 miles helped to pay off the ice cream, but only some of it :) It was still worth it though.
Monday went to the zoo with Rory and Liam, we met my cousin Sarah and her little boy Brady. Saw some exhibits we'd missed before - always a nice day.
Just been enjoying the weather and working since. I've got an interview tomorrow for a part time job at the Columbus Historical Society - not sure if I'll get it or not, but I'm excited just to interview.
As far as reading goes, I finished Fall of Thanes and wonder why I wasted my time. blah. Mistborn, The Dragonbone Chair and Running with the Demmon are all still good, still trying to get into Gardens of the Moon - can't get hooked yet I'm afraid. Many people have said that it's a good series if you're a fan of George RR Martin's style of writting. No comparison yet, but I've only ready about 25% of the book so far...
yeah, that's all that's been going on, the kids are watching some tv before bed, but I suppose I should make an appearance and get them tucked in... night!
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